A Type of Birth*
for J. P. Dancing Bear
You're right, in the painting
it was a foggy night.
And regarding the other matter, yes, I do
want to share more
of myself.
But this way? By traveling
in the imagination
through "the thinning air"
to the moon
"with its
millions of years of dust"? I love
the thought, but . . . In the painting
you showed me
the mis
leading stairway goes
not to the moon
but through it, then
- navigating
the endless traffic
at an intersection of lifetimes -
slowly reenters me down there at the base
of the spine, which is
the last flight to be climbed. But already
by that time I'm no longer
the same. Everything I do
is too
lyrical now, infused with
the puma's silence, the lungs' rhythm, the curve
of space, and moon craters that are like
sculptures of synapses as imagined
not by a sculptor but by
the synapses themselves. And so
having finally ascended within the spine
I'm here again in the brain looking out
at a green moon
in blue light. Is it really
possible to be this unweary after seeing
this much?
I'm so alert I'm not even
me anymore, but my mother
in her wheelchair
in the kitchen, gazing out
the window and taking note
of everything, regardless
of whether it is motionless or on
the move. You couldn't
have known this but
I'm sharing it with you
because you wrote.
* written a month ago